It Seems Like...

the more I try, the more I get fucked over and spat on. 

I feel like every good thing I do is a big fucking waste of time, why do I bother?

I care for people and all they ever do is treat me like shit, I don't deserve it. 

I feel as though I just want to give up on life sometimes and just sit in my room for the rest of my life and amount to absolutely nothing. 

I am being very pessimistic, I realize. 

I really don't understand people, and I never will. 

I try so hard to be a good person and it never works out and nothing ever changes. 

I guess people can't change... wait no I take that back, people don't care to change, they just want to live the way there living whether it's wrong or right.

People are fucking stubborn. 

I just want to be happy, live a happy teenage life, with my happy family and good grades and have a happy loving boyfriend. 

Nothing works out the way you want it to though. 

It never will, for me it seems like it anyway.

Every time I look or expect for the best, I get the worst.

Every time I try to be a good person, I get treated worse then before.

I don't understand.

But in the long run hopefully everything will turn out for the better, because that's all I want, to be happy... who knew it would be so difficult to achieve though?

♥, Katie